How I lost it

hi there..

so here is the skinny on how I lost 70 plus pounds…

it’s not magical..i exercised and ate less sugar..in all it’s various forms..less dairy..less grains..and of course less alcohol..

(next blog?…sugar and all it’s forms!)

kind of boring I know…

I allowed myself dark chocolate..and bought some really amazing kick butt chocolate..that I NOW have to leave at my friend’s house..so I can have it in small doses rather than eating the whole pound at once..(learned this one the hard way…more than once)

I started paying attention to words…like working out…has the word WORK in it..yes! it is going to be work! expect to breathe heavy and work hard. WORK.

I made exercise a priority in fact THE priority. Interesting word but the word priorities…plural..is a relatively new word to the English language..not even a century old. We use to just have ONE priority..now was have many priorities..

Figuring out my ONE priority took time..it was like being asked..what do you REALLY want? What do you want?

well…after a couple of weeks…because with age I now understand that I don’t have to answer right away…I worked thru it..

and determined that my ONE priority..my ONE is exercise…

I know as a mother I should say my kids…

as a wife I should say my relationship..

as a this I should say that…

but if I pick exercise, if I make that my number one priority…then everything else falls into place…I AM a better mom, I AM a better wife, I AM a better at my profession….because by exercising…I am taking care of ME and if I take better care of ME then I can take better care of others.

If I pick exercise as the ONE…then that does not get pushed around in my day planner…If I pick exercise I schedule it in and everything else gets scheduled around it…and no I am not perfect with this…sometimes I do move it around…or switch it up…but I am making progress and I am making progress in every area of my life because when I exercise I feel good….and when I feel good…I have more to give…to all of the other areas of my life.

The other thing I did was COMMIT…I decided that I did not like how I felt. I was tired at looking at the scale…tired of wanting to fit back into clothes that I didn’t even like anymore anyways…I wanted to feel good.

many times since having Ayla and during Mia’s first-second year…I thought I was going crazy..sometimes still think so….I think I was just sleep deprived and depressed…and I kept asking myself what I’ve told many patients in the past..that the number one anti-depressant is exercise..the NUMBER ONE anti-depressant is exercise…so instead of making a medical appointment where I would have asked for and been given drugs…I put my tennis shoes on and hit the trails…and it worked…but I have to commit to it if not daily, most days….or my mood will suffer and everything else in my life will suffer somehow too….and I’ll be thinking about making that doctor appointment again..

Oh…and there’s one more important thing that I did…

SLEEP

Sleep..I had to start getting more sleep somehow…because as soon as I learned that there is a link between poor sleep and weight loss/gain…( I already knew of the link between sleep and mental illness.) I had to COMMIT to getting more sleep. How? My baby is not the greatest sleeper…but I had to get it…so instead of putting the kids to sleep and then getting up  to do other things,…I started going to bed with the kids..I’d fall asleep around 8:30 and get up around 5 or 6..surely within these 9-10 hours I can get some zzzz’s right? it worked and I started to feel less mentally crazed…and actually felt more stable and strong.

so…the journey is long but with anything worthwhile in life we have to decide and dig in and do the work……you just do…because you want it…and you want it that much…

you make yourself your priority and see what falls into place..

I showed up….just like I show up for work, for my children, for my husband…I showed up for myself…in the form of exercise..

I found exercise that I love…that I crave…and trust me…not all of it was good..

these days…I go on long hikes and swim with a swim team…practice yoga and meditate…

I still have days when I eat bagels and have ice cream but they are less frequent because I realize that they make me feel bad..stomach cramps..mental fog..

And when I have those days that I cave in…I recommit the next day…and the next…without giving up and without getting mad at myself…

I recommit to making myself a priority in my own life…

Be kind to yourself…

what will you do today to take care of YOU? to REALLY nourish YOU?

with love, Sarah